7-19-10, 194 lbs.
Starbucks White Chocolate Mocha Espresso
It is sooooo good. I was already regressing back to my old ways and then my husband introduced me to this coffee, and it was over once I became hooked. I remember the date February 13, 2010. We ended a great birthday night out on the town at Starbucks.
I dealt with stress nearly everyday at work and didn't exercise. Some days were more stressful than others. On less stressful days, I treated myself to a short cup. On the crazy days, I downed a GRANDE. Calories galore. I couldn't cope in a healthy way and I'm definitely paying for it now.
Well, there's no more excuses. My daughter turned 4 years old today and blaming the weight gain on baby weight can absolutely no longer be used as an excuse. I'm not giving up and will continue to try to shed this thickness, lol!
Happy New Year!! Seems like being home on winter break has caused me to have forgotten that I was trying to lose weight. The intent was NOT take a total vacation from working out and eating whatever whenever. It seems like I nearly abandoned the fact that I'm trying to reach a goal. Dang, I should've never eased up. I'll get back on track. I'm not giving up, but it doesn't look like 35 before 35 will happen....more like 35 after 35 LOL! If I can at least lose 20 before 35 I'll be content. I'll do my best to stick to it...so far not so good.
I woke up feeling optimistic telling myself I can win this battle of the bulge **until** I spotted the homeade peanut brittle boxed and beautifully wrapped on my kitchen counter thanks to my husband's customers (they give us things ranging from cigars, cake balls, to huge bags of onions.) I felt so guilty after eating the first box of peanut brittle given to us last week. --After eating the first patty, I handed the box back to my husband and told him to get rid of it. Keep in mind these patties are nearly 4 inches in diameter. Well, his way of getting rid of it was putting it in his pickup truck parked in the garage...what the mess?? Out of sight was not out of mind in this case. Needless to say the box somehow made it back in the house and I polished it off. Booooo! I'm not even a p-brittle fan, but this is absolutely the best I've ever had. I can't believe he had the audacity to bring home another box last night. I feel the need to throw it away, but I'm torn between keeping it and not being wasteful. I just thought of an idea....I'll give it to family when I see them on the New Year's Day. Problem solved. Now, if I can just hold out from not eating another patty until tomorrow.This is the actual menu my dad and I discussed. New Year's Day/New Beginnings and I'm already losing. I'm up to 183.5 lbs b/c I've been showing out these past couple of days and I've yet to go to the gym. Sleeping in has been so much more fun.
I did make a baby step and added 25 songs to my playlist b/c I was getting so bored w/ my workout music. I am so not computer savvy, but I did figure out how to download it on my device. I have included working out on my schedule today (I'm already behind schedule), so I better get a move on it. Maybe I can get 3 days in this week. It's better than not doing anything at all.
Last, if anyone knows me, they know I hate to shop. I hate beauty salons too, but that's another story. However, I live for pedicures but that's another story too. Anyway, I want to look decent and not frumpy, but I never have the time, patience, or money to clothes shop! It's an enjoyable pasttime for many people, but not me. However, I love online shopping....well online window shopping b/c you don't have to dig through racks, search for your size, deal w/ traffic, wait in lines, etc. I spent about 2 hours last night window shopping online. Picked out about $500 (of money I don't have but I bargained shopped) worth of clothing. I was torn between getting clothes that fit now or clothes that is a size smaller. I'll decide later what to do IF I make the purchase. At the rate I'm going, I'll need to get a size larger.
I love tunics. I just find them so age appropriate, flattering, and comfortable. Baby doll dresses, empire/high waisted garments, and belted sweaters are cute on some women, but they alway look like maternity wear on me. I envy women w/ tiny waists! Well I'm off to handle business this New Year's Eve. I've got alot to do before everything closes.
