The Ongoing Struggle

I woke up feeling optimistic telling myself I can win this battle of the bulge **until** I spotted the homeade peanut brittle boxed and beautifully wrapped on my kitchen counter thanks to my husband's customers (they give us things ranging from cigars, cake balls, to huge bags of onions.) I felt so guilty after eating the first box of peanut brittle given to us last week. --After eating the first patty, I handed the box back to my husband and told him to get rid of it. Keep in mind these patties are nearly 4 inches in diameter. Well, his way of getting rid of it was putting it in his pickup truck parked in the garage...what the mess?? Out of sight was not out of mind in this case. Needless to say the box somehow made it back in the house and I polished it off. Booooo! I'm not even a p-brittle fan, but this is absolutely the best I've ever had. I can't believe he had the audacity to bring home another box last night. I feel the need to throw it away, but I'm torn between keeping it and not being wasteful. I just thought of an idea....I'll give it to family when I see them on the New Year's Day. Problem solved. Now, if I can just hold out from not eating another patty until tomorrow.

I thought I was finished with the holiday food obstacle course. I mentioned in the previous post how my dad wanted us to gather together New Year's Day. Getting together is cool, all the food we are planning to eat is not so cool. I've yet to reach to the point of total self control so had it just been me, husband and the children, we would just have black eyed peas w/ jowls for luck and baked chicken....maybe a salad. Instead we're having:

• 3-cheese macaroni and cheese
• turnip greens
• cornbread- sinful recipe made w/ sour cream and whole kernal corn
• grilled chicken
• ribs
• black eyed peas
• sweet potato casserole
• caramel fudge cake

This is the actual menu my dad and I discussed. New Year's Day/New Beginnings and I'm already losing. I'm up to 183.5 lbs b/c I've been showing out these past couple of days and I've yet to go to the gym. Sleeping in has been so much more fun.

I did make a baby step and added 25 songs to my playlist b/c I was getting so bored w/ my workout music. I am so not computer savvy, but I did figure out how to download it on my device. I have included working out on my schedule today (I'm already behind schedule), so I better get a move on it. Maybe I can get 3 days in this week. It's better than not doing anything at all.

Last, if anyone knows me, they know I hate to shop. I hate beauty salons too, but that's another story. However, I live for pedicures but that's another story too. Anyway, I want to look decent and not frumpy, but I never have the time, patience, or money to clothes shop! It's an enjoyable pasttime for many people, but not me. However, I love online shopping....well online window shopping b/c you don't have to dig through racks, search for your size, deal w/ traffic, wait in lines, etc. I spent about 2 hours last night window shopping online. Picked out about $500 (of money I don't have but I bargained shopped) worth of clothing. I was torn between getting clothes that fit now or clothes that is a size smaller. I'll decide later what to do IF I make the purchase. At the rate I'm going, I'll need to get a size larger.

I love tunics. I just find them so age appropriate, flattering, and comfortable. Baby doll dresses, empire/high waisted garments, and belted sweaters are cute on some women, but they alway look like maternity wear on me. I envy women w/ tiny waists! Well I'm off to handle business this New Year's Eve. I've got alot to do before everything closes.